Yesterday Nathan and I were busy.  We took our new single cedar strip kayak to the lake and while we were there our friends Katie, Abby and Beckett showed up so while Nathan tested out the "sea worthiness" of the new kayak the rest of us (Sydney included) walked around the lake while Nathan showed up here and there.

Then we went up to Sam’s Club in Auburn to see what they had as far as furniture and "stuff".  They did have a living room set that I really kind of liked but wasn’t sure would fit in our area and there was a BBQ that Nathan really liked, but we didn’t get either, we focused more on the needs side of things like tablecloths for our dining room table, plastic dessert plates, Alfredo sauce, wine, you know, the necessities.  Then we walked through the center.  It is amazing how much Christmas stuff is out already, and it was hard to think about Christmas.  It was supposed to be around that time that Charlie & Jackson were born and I just kept thinking how I had been looking forward to Christmas, most likely with newborns, and how much fun it would have been to have family all together with the newest additions celebrating.  But we aren’t going to get to do that, and frankly I don’t really want to celebrate Christmas because I know I will just be thinking about how it should have been.  No soft stuffed toys and peacefully sleeping infants with Babies first Christmas ornaments, I think it is just going to feel empty.  So we are thinking of maybe not being here for Christmas, maybe finding a good deal to Europe and exploring the world together.  If you know of any good deals, let us know!